如果你想知道我过得怎么样
If you've ever wondered how it went with me,
那么你可以放心地知道我过得很好
then you can feel free to know that I had a good life.
我很幸运
I was lucky.
外出 偷 马
1999年 11月
我这一生都渴望孤身一人呆在这样的地方
All my life I have longed for it to be alone in a place like this.
无论环境如何
No matter how nice it was.
我在瑞典住了四十二年 现在我住在这里
I have lived in Sweden for 42 years. Now I live here.
再过几周这个世纪就要结束了
In a couple of weeks this century is over.
那时村子里会有个烟火晚会 但是我不会去的
Then there is a party with fireworks in the village. I'm not going there.
我要呆在家里 喝个酩酊大醉
I'm staying home here. Me just drinking drunk enough
睡得越深越好 睡个天昏地暗
and sleep as deeply as possible without being dead.
我期待着那一天
I'm looking forward to that.
波克
Poker.
波克
Poker.
波克
Poker.
波克
Poker.
- 波克 - 嘿
- Poker? - Hey.
你就是住在那房子的人 是吗
You certainly live in that house, don't you?
我刚搬来
I moved here.
他这样乱跑真的很难让人入睡 森林里全是狼
It is not easy to sleep like he is not there. There are wolves in the forest.
波克
Poker?
来 坐下 就位
Come, sit, place.
你知道边境牧羊犬是世界上最聪明的狗吗
Do you know that border collies are the most intelligent are dogs considered in the world?
我听说过
I heard that.
恐怕哪天我就要听他的了
He's in charge of me, I fear.
- 那可太糟了 - 是啊
- Thats not so good. - No.
我射杀过一只狗 我发誓再也不会那样做了
I shot a dog once and I vowed never to do that again.
但现在我就不清楚了
But now I just don't know yet.
是吗 什么样的狗让你非杀不可
Yes? What kind of dog was that? who you had to shoot?
是条牧羊犬 但不是我的狗
A sheepdog. But he wasn't mine.
我母亲先看到的他
My mother saw him first.
他沿着森林的边缘乱跑
He ran free along the edge of the forest, chased the deer,
追着这几天一直来我们牧场吃草的鹿 他们跑得筋疲力尽了
that we had seen for a few days grazing. They gradually became exhausted.
母亲打电话给警察 问他们应该怎么做 他说 开枪打死他
Mother called the police and asked what they should do and he said, "Shoot him."
那你就应该这么做 拉尔斯 她当时说
"You should do that, Lars," she said then.
我很不喜欢那样 而且我几乎从来没碰过那把枪
I absolutely didn't feel like it, I almost never touched that gun.
突然那两只鹿向我跑来 我别无他法
I couldn't help it. Suddenly the two deer ran towards me.
在它们后面三十米处就是那只牧羊犬
Thirty meters behind it the shepherd dog arrived.
那可真是头巨兽
It was a huge beast.
我开枪击中了他 但他既没有改变速度
I'm sure I hit him, but he changed
也没有改变方向
neither of speed nor of direction.
我又开了一枪 他离我只有几米远
I fired another shot, he was just a few meters from me
然后他腾空跃起 直接落在我的脚前面
and then he slid his feet into the air all the way to just before my feet.
他就躺在那里
He lay there.
吓得双腿瘫痪的我直直地看着他
Me with paralyzed legs looking straight at it.
我弯下腰想抚摸他 但他开始咆哮
I stooped to stroke him, but he growled
咬了我的手
and bit my hand.
我又给了他两枪
I gave him two more bullets,
- 直接打爆了他的头 - 厉害
- straight through his head. - Nice thing.
那时我才刚十九岁
I just turned 19.
虽然很久以前的事了 但我永远也忘不了
It was a long time ago, but i never forget it.
现在我知道你为什么再也不想射杀狗了
Now I understand you never want to shoot a dog again.
再看看吧
We will see.
我们还没有互相介绍过自己
We never introduced ourselves to each other.
特罗德·桑德
Trond Sander.
拉尔斯·豪格 H-A-U-G
Lars Haug, with a g.
走了 波克
Come on, Poker.
谢谢你的陪伴
Thank you for the company.
天哪
Jesus.
奥拉夫现在可以去把灯换了 我会订一个新的玻璃和扰流板
Olav can now replace the light and I will order a new glass and spoiler.
- 去商店吧 - 谢谢
- Go to the store. - Thank you.
- 你还开心吗 - 当然
- Are you still happy? - Yes of course.
当我发现我现在住的房子时就挺开心的
I was very happy when I was found the house I live in now.
一个人住没那么好 对吧
It's not that nice to live alone, right?
她是三年前去世的 时光飞逝
It was almost three years ago that she died. Time flies.
三十八年的孤独戛然而止
38 years of solitude ended abruptly.
是我开的车 但我不感到内疚
I was the driver. I don't feel guilty.
只是遗憾
Only the lack.
- 奥拉夫在里面休息 你要杯咖啡吗 - 那太好了
- Olav has a break. Do you want a cup of coffee? - That would be nice.
进去吧
Go inside.
- 谢谢 - 那么...
- Thank you. - And...
你在托彭过的怎么样
how are you doing at Toppen?
我去看过那所房子两次
I've been there twice myself to view the house.
我想要看看有没有生意可以做 但我喜欢修车 不喜欢做木工
I wondered if I would make an offer, but I like tinkering, not carpentry.
但这对你来说是不是正好相反呢
But is that perhaps the other way around with you?
并不是 我在这两个方面都不行
Not really. I am not very skilled in either,
但我有的是时间
but i have all the time.
我父亲是个很务实的人 我从他身上学到了很多
My father was a practical man. I learned a lot from him.
父亲都很伟大
Fathers are something nice.
不了 谢谢
No thanks.
我的父亲是一名教师 我从他那里学会了读书
My father was a teacher. I learned to read books from him,
仅此而已 他不是一个务实的人
not much more. He wasn't practical, that would have been a lie.
但他是个好人
But he was a nice man.
如果我有个实质上的工作 我会想如果是我父亲他会怎么做
If I have a practical job, I introduce myself for how my father would have done it.
一个四十岁出头的充满自信的人
Someone in their early 40s with confidence,
这是我十五岁时对父亲的看法
this is how i saw my father, when I was 15
他从我的生活中永远消失了
and he disappeared from my life forever.
1948年 6月
特罗德 你为什么不去割那些荨麻
Why don't you mow those nettles, Trond?
会痛的
That hurts.
痛不痛 你自己可以决定
You decide yourself when it hurts.
那时我只有十五岁 一个城市里的孩子
I was only 15 years old. Such a petty city kid.
和父亲一起在他以低廉的价格买下的牧场过暑假
On summer vacation with father, who had bought the farm cheaply.
我曾经他不止一次听他说过 和女人在一起他会无法思考
I have heard him say he more than once could not think with women in the neighborhood.
这就是为什么我被允许来 但我的姐姐和我的母亲不能
That's why I was allowed to come, but not my sister or my mother.
后来我才知道他说的不是所有女人
Later I thought he might not all women.
嗨 乔恩
Hi, Jon.
- 你在这里很久了吗 - 我刚来
- Have you been here a long time? - I just got here.
- 我们要去偷马 - 我知道
- We're going to steal horses. - I know.
嗨 乔恩
Hi, Jon.
- 他怎么了 - 我不知道
- What's the matter with him? - I do not know.
当然 我早该明白那天早上发生了一件特别的事
Of course I should have understood that there was something special that morning,
他走路的样子很奇怪
something with the way on which he moved.
但我唯一注意到的是他没带枪
But the only thing I noticed was that he didn't have his gun with him,
他以前总是随身携带
that he always took with him.
安静 到这里来 冷静下来
Quiet. Come here. Calm down.
安静
Quiet.
冷静点
Calm down.
预备
If so.
跳
And jump.
- 我们去哪儿 - 我给你看些东西
- Where are we going? - I'll show you something.
看
Look.
很棒的是 有一些小东西能够活下来 然后就这么飞走了
It's great that something small is capable of this to live and just fly away.
今天早上你是和乔恩一起走的吗
This morning, were you on the road with Jon?
是的
Yes.
你们去干什么了
What did you do?
偷马
Stealing horses.
我们并不是真的想偷 只是想要骑骑
We didn't really want to steal them, only on driving.
乔恩怎么样
How was Jon?
你想知道商店里每个人都在谈论什么吗
Do you want to know what everyone is talking about in the shop?
前 一 天
乔恩和往常一样在猎野兔
Jon had been on a hare hunt, as always.
那天 他的母亲到内比达去拜访几个熟人
His mother went to Innbygda that day to visit a few acquaintances
他的父亲在森林里
and his father was in the forest.
他本应该照顾双胞胎的
And he should have looked after the twins.
奥德 拉尔斯
Odd? Lars?
奥德 拉尔斯
Odd? Lars?
奥德 拉尔斯
Odd. Lars.
奥德 拉尔斯
Odd. Lars.
拉尔斯
Lars.
拉尔斯
Lars.
我去接你妈妈 我不在的时候看好拉尔斯
I have to pick up your mother. Watch out for Lars while I'm gone.
你能做到的
You can do that.
我又回来了 是不是好极了
Here I am again, isn't that nice?
他没有说
He didn't tell.
他们两个人在森林里走了那么长一段路
All that long way through the forest, just the two of you
而他什么也没有告诉她
and he had told her nothing.
奥德在哪儿
Where's Odd?
现在你知道了
So now you know.
节哀顺变
Sorry for your loss.
我实实在在的告诉你们
Verily, verily, I say to you,
他们听了我的话 就信差我来的
who hears My word and believe him who sent me,
它有永恒的生命 不会被诅咒
it has eternal life and will not be damned,
但已经从生命中逝去
but has passed from death in life.
我们在天上的父
Our father who are in heaven,
愿你的名被尊为圣 愿你的国降临
be sanctified your name, your kingdom come,
愿你的旨意行在地上 如同行在天上
your will be done, as in heaven so also on earth.
我想过这么年轻就死去是什么感觉
I thought about how that felt had to be to die so young.
我知道你什么都感觉不到 如果你死了 你就死了
I knew you could feel absolutely nothing. If you were dead, you were dead,
但就在那一秒之前
but that fraction of a second just before:
如果你明白了这一切都即将结束了呢
if you understood then that it was over?
俄国炸弹刚袭击了格罗兹尼
Russian grenades hail down on Grozny.
三天的连番轰炸导致了难民潮
Three days of bombing led to a stream of refugees.
即将可预见大量骚乱 平民的安全…
Countdown to a possible chaos. The Civil Protection ...
现在我突然明白了 拉尔斯就是拉尔斯
Now I suddenly know for sure. Lars is Lars.
拉尔斯 杀了他弟弟的那个拉尔斯
Lars, who shot his brother.
尽管我最后一次见到他是在他十岁的时候
Even though I last saw him when he was ten years old.
这并不能改变什么 我确信他没有认出我
Not that it changes anything. I'm out of it convinced that he did not recognize me.
我现在也说瑞典语
I now also speak Swedish.
奥德的葬礼已经过去四天了
Four days had passed since Odd's funeral
从那以后我就没见过乔恩
and I had not seen Jon since.
每当看到乔恩不在门口 我都感到短暂的解脱
Every time Jon wasn't at the door, I felt a brief fluttering relief.
然后是感到羞愧
Then I was ashamed
他就这样从我的生活中消失了
and then he disappeared from my life.
我再也没见过他
I've never seen him again.
她很严肃 眼皮也肿了 但她并没有因为悲伤而崩溃
She was serious and had swollen eyelids, but she was not broke with sorrow.
她只比我母亲小几岁
She was only a few years younger then my own mother.
她微笑着 好像我是第一次见到她似的
She beamed, as if I saw her for the first time.
谢谢你的到来
Thank you for coming.
我想知道这是不是因为发生了什么
And I was wondering whether that was because of what had happened,
还是你经历了这样的事情之后开始变得耀眼
or you go through something like that as it were, could become luminous.
我不得不把目光集中在地面上 然后走开
I had to focus my eyes on the floor and walked away.
那该死的树荫
That coat shadow.
也许我们应该交错着做 今年做一点 明年再做一点 不行吗
Maybe we should do it staggered? A little bit now, a little bit next year?
我的树木何时砍由我自己决定
I decide when my wood is felled.
弗朗茨
Franz.
弗朗茨
Franz.
我把自己的血和命运混在一起 既来之则安之
I have mixed my blood with fate and take it as it comes.
你想洗个澡吗
Do you fancy a shower?
看谁先到外面
Who is first outside.
来啊
Come on.
你就打算站在那里吗
Are you just going to stand there?
你父亲在盛夏砍树确实冒了风险
Your father does take a risk by cutting down trees in the middle of the summer.
木头充满水分 容易下沉
The wood is full of moisture. It can sink.
现在水位也很低 问题是不知道这些木材能否到达瑞典
The water level is low. The question is whether the wood will reach Sweden.
但如果他现在想做 那我们现在就做
But if he wants to do it now, then we do it now.
啊 来吧
Ah, come on.
冷静
Calm down.
他刚刚失去了一个儿子
He had just lost his one son.
但我甚至不记得我是否为他感到难过
But I don't even remember if I felt sorry for him.
我第一次对父亲产生了强烈的怨恨
For the first time I felt a stab resentment towards my father.
因为在那之前他是我生命中最完美的人
Because he was the most perfect until then moment in my life.
天哪
Jesus...
你说什么
What did you say?
我说 天哪
"Jesus," I said.
今天发生的事情...
What happened today ...
完全没有必要
that was completely unnecessary.
我本该早点制止
I should have stopped much earlier.
我们这样做的结果肯定是错的
As we were doing it had to ended up wrong.
那全都是我的错
It is my fault.
我晚些时候也会去睡觉
I will also go to bed later.
晚上好
Good evening.
我正要吃饭 不过没关系 进来吧
I was just going to eat, but that doesn't matter, come in.
呆在那里
Stay there.
你饿吗 东西够两个人吃的
Are you hungry? There is enough for two.
坐吧
Sit down.
味道不错
Tastes good.
我知道你是谁
I know who you are.
我也知道你是谁
I also know who you are.
我想到了
I thought so.
看这里
Take a look here.
我真希望拉尔斯没有说那些话
I wish Lars had not said what he said,
这使我想起了我遗留的过去
it binds me to a past that I had left behind.
我从来这样没有独自一人过
I've never been alone.
但也不算是真正一个人
Not really.
我感觉不到今天开始时的我了
I didn't feel the person that I had been when this day started.
我甚至不知道我是否为此难过
And I didn't even know if I was sad about that.
这是我人生中第一次不想做谁的儿子
For the first time in my life I didn't want to be someone's son.
有早饭吗
Breakfast?
- 起得挺早 - 是的 我起得很早
- Up early. - Yes, I woke up early.
还有...我感到了孤独
And ... I felt alone.
你找到他了吗
Did you find him?
是的
Yes.
当他不得不带着文件和信件去瑞典时
He came to hide here for when he had to go to Sweden
他就来这里躲藏起来 有时还带着抵抗运动的影片
with papers and letters and sometimes with films for the resistance.
我知道他迟早会过来 有一天 他敲门了
I knew he was coming. One day he knocked.
他说 你来吗 我们要去偷马
He said: 'Are you coming? We're going to steal horses. "
我不知道这个想法是谁先提出来的的 但我们达成一致了
I don't know who made it up, but those were the words that had been agreed.
然后他在巴卡尔德定居了下来 就是你现在度暑假住的地方
He then settled in Barkald, where you are now on summer vacation.
每天早上他都和德国卫兵在一起聊天 因为他的德语还不错
Every morning he stayed with the German guard talking, because his German wasn't bad.
他敲打 砍伐木头 在这里建立了另一种生活
He hammered, chopped wood. He built up an alternative life here.
乔恩的母亲每周过河一两次
Jon's mother rowed once or twice a week on the river,
像管家一样替我父亲做事
to act like a housekeeper to act for my father,
这样他就不至于在另一边病倒时没人照顾
so he didn't get sick of that one-sided cost.
每个人都明白这一点 即使是德国人
Everyone understood that even the Germans.
我不明白为什么我的朋友乔恩或其他什么人都没说过这件事
I wondered why my friend Jon or whoever did not mention it:
他经常到这个村子来 所以他也被算当作本地人了
that he had been to this village so often, that he was counted among the permanent residents.
有一天 一个男人从城里来 他在逃亡 他必须去瑞典
One day a man came from the city. On the run. He had to go to Sweden.
在村子后方有座大山峰
It was an important peak from the home front.
他在那里躲了几天等待通知
He hid there for a few days waiting for a flight option.
德国人每天开车经过这个牧场好几次
Several times a day the Germans drove past the farm.
乔恩的父亲对这样的交易不感兴趣 他很害怕
Jon's father wanted nothing with 'the traffic' dealing. He was scared.
没人知道这个穿的脏兮兮的城里人是怎么逃亡的
No one knew what the dung-clad city man rotated.
你是想要德国人过来吗
Do you want the Germans here?
乔恩的母亲曾向你父亲提出要带他去瑞典
Jon's mother had rowed it to your father to take him to Sweden.
停下
Stop.
你必须跟着他的脚印
You have to follow in his footsteps.
但乔恩的父亲装作没看见 没有照做
But Jon's father looked the other way and didn't do it.
停下 这是命令 停下
Halt, this is an order. Halt.
停下 这是命令
Halt, this is an order.
之后他们留在了瑞典直到战争结束
So he stayed in Sweden until the war was over.
- 你为什么告诉我这些事情 - 因为他让我这么做的
- Why do you tell me all those things? - Because he asked me to do that.
等机缘到了的时候 现在就是了
If the opportunity arose. And that was the case now.
来吧
Come.
我们要一起处理掉它吗
Shall we attack him?
我很乐意
Gladly.
我想到了人的身体
I think of the human body:
前一分钟刀枪不入
invincible one moment,
紧接着是粉身碎骨
the following lost forever.
我不知道拉尔斯是不是这样想的
I do not know if Lars thinks so.
一旦想到这个 我就无法停止
I can not resist once it hits me.
那堆东西看起来真不错
That pile looks really good.
就是些棍子
Those are just a few sticks.
但是仍然很漂亮 就像一个真正的微型模型
But he is still beautiful. Just like a real miniature.
我不知道微型模型是什么
I don't know what miniature is.
那就像一个很小的东西 但和一个很大的东西完全一样
That is like something very small, exactly the same as something big.
- 只是几根棍子而已 - 行吧
- It's just a few sticks. - Fine.
只是几根棍子而已
It's just a few sticks.
你不想吃点什么吗
Don't you want to eat anything?
不想
No.
好吧 那也可以
All right. That is fine too.
你不必那么责怪自己
You don't have to damn you.
不过我饿了
At least I'm hungry.
我杀了我的弟弟
I shot my brother.
我知道
I know that.
但那不是你的错
But it wasn't your fault.
你并不知道枪已上膛
You didn't know that the gun was loaded.
是的 我真的不知道
No, I did not know that.
那完全是意外
It was an accident.
是的
Yes.
就是一个意外
It was an accident.
每个人都这样说
Everyone says that.
- 你真的不想吃点东西吗 - 不想
- Are you sure you don't want to eat? - Yes
我就呆在这儿
I'll stay here.
你怕被雪困住吗
Are you afraid you get snowed in?
怕
Yes.
我也是
That too.
- 那你需要一些人帮你除雪 - 找了 阿斯克林
- Then you have to find someone who clears snow. - Yes, Aslien.
那么你就没什么问题了
So then you're in the right place.
我能感觉到他的情绪很有感染力
I can feel his mood infectious.
但它也让我惊讶 让我担心
But it also surprises me, it worries me.
我内心的某些东西正在改变 我在改变
Something in me is changing, I am changing,
转变成一个我自己也不是很了解的人
in someone whom I don't know very well.
我不知道这种改变发生了多久
I wonder how long that change has been going on.
我可以往炉子里放些木头吗
Shall I put some wood in the stove?
好的 可以
Great, do that.
我应该接管牧场的
I would actually take over the farm.
你一定想知道我为什么住在这里
You must have wondered why I live here
而不是在我老家的村子里
and not in the village where I come from?
是的 有一点
Yes, a little bit.
那个牧场本该是我接管的
I'd take him over.
毕竟 只有我一个人留在老家
After all, I was the only one at home.
乔恩去了海边 而奥德...
Jon went to the sea and Odd was ...
奥德死了
Odd was dead.
我每天都在牧场工作 从来没有像现在的农民有过休假
I had worked on that farm every day, never vacation like the farmers have now.
我父亲再也没有回来过
And my father never came back.
他病了 没有人知道他到底出了什么问题
He fell ill. Nobody understood what he actually had.
然后许多年过去了
And the years passed.
1956年 秋
有一天乔恩下了公交车 踏上了家门口的路
And then Jon stepped out one day just off the bus, the road came down
说他准备接管牧场
and said he was prepared to take over the farm.
他又瘦又笨拙
He was lean and lanky.
我想 他永远也经营不好牧场
He can never run a farm, I thought.
但我无能为力 那是他的权利
But I couldn't do anything about it. It was his right.
你是取代了我的位置吗
Have you taken the place who was actually mine?
我可以在这儿抽烟吗
Can I smoke in here?
当然可以
Of course.
然后你做了什么
What did you do then?
我离开了
I left.
离开的那天我二十岁 之后我就再也没回过家
On the day I turned twenty. I have never been home afterwards.
真想不到
Sodeju.
我二十岁以后就没见过我母亲了
I haven't seen my mother anymore since I was 20.
她还活着吗
Is she still alive?
我不知道
I do not know.
我从来也没去想过
I never figured that out.
谢谢你的食物
Thanks for the food.
我们要去哪里
Where are we going?
一周后乘公共汽车去奥斯陆
In a week take the bus home to Oslo.
对我来说这个夏天很了不得
It was the summer for me.
但这就是人生
But that's life.
你能从许多事情之中学到很多
You learn from that, when things happen.
过后不要忘记
Don't forget to think about it
去思考
later on.
永远不要怨恨
And never be bitter.
这些都是允许被思考的
It is permitted to think.
好的
Yes.
你明白了吗
Do you understand?
你要去埃尔沃吕姆坐前往奥斯陆的火车回家
You step into Elverum on the train home, to Oslo.
等我把这里所有事情都弄好后 我随后就到
Then I finish everything here and if that happened, I will come.
你觉得怎么样
Is that good?
挺好的
Yes that is good.
不好 这并不好 对此我有一种不好的预感
No. It was not good. I had a bad feeling.
在那之后的一段时间里 我不断地问自己
The big question that I ask myself in the time after that time and again:
或者那时他就已经知道自己永远不会回来了
or that he already knew then that he would never come after.
那是我们最后一次见面
That it was the last time that we saw each other.
你还醒着吗
Are you awake?
是的
Yes.
我们明天冒个险 把木头送上路
We will take it tomorrow. We send the wood on the road.
- 弗朗茨会来帮忙 - 好的
- Franz is coming to help. - Alright.
那毕竟不是小打小闹 而是一大堆木头
It will not be child's play. It is a lot of wood.
我们必须用斧头砍倒他们
We have to cut them down with the ax.
一个随和的人必须时常冒很大的风险
A easy-going person must take great risks now and then.
快跑 该死的
Run, damn it.
你得到我父亲了吗
Did you get my dad?
你是否拥有我生命中真正属于我的那几年
Have you had years of my life who were actually meant for me?
父亲留在河边陪着她 我很确定
Father stayed with the river with her. I know that for sure.
而拉尔斯不谈起他 那一定是因为他不想伤害我
And that Lars is not talking about him, that must be because he wants to spare me.
你是去偷马了吗
Have you been stealing horses?
穿好衣服 然后快点出来
Put on your clothes and come out immediately.
- 我们要去哪里 - 你知道我们的那条河
- Where are we going? - You know our own river
是从这里一直延伸到瑞典吗
all the way from here until a whole stretch runs in Sweden?
她不需要征求任何人的同意
She doesn't need to ask anyone for permission.
在这大地上不受干扰地蜿蜒
She is writhing here undisturbed in the landscape.
我们也要这样做
We are going to do the same.
我们要去瑞典旅行 看看我们的木头怎么样了
We are going on a trip to Sweden, see how our wood is doing.
这就是挫折
That is setback.
现在几乎没有水了 这就是为什么他们通常在春天伐木
Now there is little water. That's why they usually do it in the spring.
一 二 三
One two Three.
你看到那边的松树了吗
See that sunspot there?
从那开始就是瑞典了
Sweden starts there.
看谁是第一个 快
Who is the first. Come on.
摔到哪里了吗
Does it hurt a lot somewhere?
心里有一点痛 是吗
Only a little bit in the soul?
放下它 特罗德
Lower it, Trond.
别管了
Just leave it.
对你没好处
You can't use it for anything.
特罗德
Trond?
特罗德
Trond.
我抓住你了
I've got you.
你还好吗
Are you OK?
快
Come on.
用力
Come on.
下午三点四十五分从埃尔沃吕姆开来的列车刚刚抵达四号轨道
The 3.45 pm train from Elverum has just arrived on track 4.
两个月后
那年夏末 我每天都在等埃尔沃吕姆的火车
I waited for the Elverum train that late summer every day.
- 是你吗 - 对 是我
- Is it you? - Yes It's me.
是不是很惊喜啊
That is certainly a surprise, isn't it?
我不能否认
I can't deny that.
嗨 我的父亲
Hi, Father of mine.
嗨 我的孩子
Hi my child.
我给一百公里以内所有市政当局都打了电话 想知道你住在哪里
I called all municipalities within 100 km, to find out where you live.
不止这样 我为此已经忙了好几个星期了
And more. I've been busy for weeks.
后来我去挪威看了看
Then I came to have a look, in Norway.
你居然连个电话都没有
You don't even have a phone.
真是该死
Damn it too.
你可以给车子熄火了
You can now switch off the engine.
这里真美啊
It is beautiful here.
我一直都觉得这里挺美的
I thought it would be beautiful, over time.
你宁愿我没有来 是吗
Would you rather have that I had not come?
也许你想一个人待着 这就是你来这里的原因 不是吗
Maybe you want to be left alone? That's why you're here, aren't you?
然后...
And then...
我在天亮前开车到你的院子里来打扰你
I come before dawn drove into your yard and bothered you.
我改变了我的生活
I've changed my life.
事故以后 我再也不想那样生活了
I didn't feel like it anymore, after the accident.
你好吗
How are you doing?
我挺好的
I'm doing well.
日子照常一天天过 我有一个和我有很多共同点的邻居
The days pass. I have a neighbor with whom I have a lot in common.
一个会用电锯的机灵人 他真的帮了我很多
A handy guy with a chainsaw. It is especially he who helps me.
我砍柴 做木工 长路散步
I chop wood, carpenter, take long walks
晚上我则读各种书
and in the evening I read everything.
特别是狄更斯
But especially Dickens.
你总是在家里读狄更斯的作品
You always read Dickens at home.
这封信是写给我们三个人的 你们父亲寄来的
The letter is addressed to all three of us. He's from father.
感谢我们在一起度过的时光 我经常带着喜悦的心情回首往事
"Thanks for the time we have together had. I look back with joy on it,
但现在有了另一个时刻 你们也无能为力
but now there is another time and there is nothing you can do about it:
我再也不会回来了
I'm not coming home anymore.
在瑞典卡尔斯塔德的一家银行里
In a bank in Karlstad, Sweden, I have credit
我把那年夏天我们砍伐木头挣的钱存在了那里
for the wood we had that summer felled and sent along with the river.
我已经给银行写了信 这样你就可以用护照
I have already written to the bank so you can withdraw the money
和我附上的委托书提取这笔钱了
with your passport and the power of attorney I have attached.
祝一切安好
All the best.'
什么木头
Wood?
我当时还不知道狄更斯是写那本书的作者
I did not understand that Dickens was the name of the man who had written the book.
我以为那是一本只有我们才有的特殊类型的书
I thought it was a special type of book that only we had.
有时你会大声朗读《大卫·科波菲尔》
Sometimes you read aloud from David Copperfield.
无论我是否成为自己人生故事中的英雄
"Whether I become the hero in my own life story,
或者会不会由别人来主宰一切 时间都会告诉我们的
whether that role is assigned to another, time will tell. "
我总是觉得这样的开头很可怕
I always found that start scary.
我们不一定能在自己的生活中扮演主角
That we don't necessarily have the lead had to play in our own lives.
如此可怕的事情
Something so horrible:
像是一种幽灵的存在
a kind of ghost existence,
我只能眼睁睁看着那个人取代我位置
in which I could only look at the one who had taken my place.
我不知道你有这样的想法
I did not know that you had such thoughts.
你从来没有告诉过我
You never told me that.
是的
No.
她不知道我有多少次想过同样的事情
She has no idea how many times I have thought the same thing
然后不得不继续往下看 几乎因恐惧而全身僵硬
and then had to read through, almost stiff with fear.
- 瓦姆兰银行 - 是的 但不在这里
- Winlands Bank. - Yes, but that's not here.
- 你冷吗 - 我不冷
- Are you cold? - No, I'm not cold.
- 不在这儿 我问过别人了 - 那肯定也在这附近
- It's not here. I do ask someone. - It must be somewhere around here.
- 这真美 - 我们不能一直在这里走来走去
- It is beautiful here. - We can't keep walking around here.
- 我们得找个人问路 - 我们一定会找到的
- We have to ask someone the way. - We sure will find it.
我们最终肯定会找到的
We certainly do that in the end.
打扰了 请问瓦姆兰银行怎么走
Excuse me? The Winlands Bank.
- 什么 - 瓦姆兰银行怎么走
- What? - The road to the Winlands Bank.
你知道在哪吗 你聋了吗
Do you know where it is? Are you deaf?
- 什么 - 你是聋子吗
- What? - Are you deaf?
你是想挨巴掌吗
Do you want a slap on your face?
我做了一个选择 我没有打卡尔斯塔德的那个人
I had made a choice, when I didn't hit that man in Karlstad.
如果我打了他 我就变成另一个人了
If I had hit, I had become a different man.
然后我的生活就会变成另一种生活
Then my life would have become a different life.
- 没有账户吗 - 有的 一切都很顺利
- Was there no bill? - Yes, it went fine.
我拿到了钱 但只有一百五十克朗
I got the money, but it was only 150 crowns.
听起来是不是有点少啊
Doesn't that seem a little low?
我也不懂 但是你认为运木头能赚多少钱呢
I don't understand that, but how much do you think you can earn from such wood?
- 不知道 - 我们要一起继续旅程了
- No idea. - We went on a journey together.
你知道最有趣的事是什么吗 我们得把钱花在这里
Do you know what the funniest thing is? We have to spend the money here.
我们不能这样把它带到挪威去 因为某些货币限制的关系
We cannot take it to Norway. Because of certain currency restrictions.
来吧
Come.
嘿 我们想为这个年轻人找一套西装
Hey. We are looking for a suit for this young man here.
这套挺合适他的
Such a one for him there.
把外套脱了
Jacket out.
特罗德 你在里面还好吗
Is it okay inside, Trond?
在那一刻 一切都感觉良好
At that moment everything felt fine.
那是一套漂亮的西装 那是一个美丽的城市
It was a nice suit and it was a beautiful city.
而痛不痛的事
And we decide for ourselves
我们真的可以自己决定
when it hurts.
导演 汉斯·皮特·莫朗
斯特兰·斯卡斯加德
比约恩·弗洛伯格
乔恩·雷恩斯
托拜厄斯·桑特尔曼
达妮察·丘尔契奇
帕尔·斯维尔·哈根
改编自 小说 《外出偷马》
佩尔·帕特森